What to do?

I'm getting crazy this 2 days. What to do? I got no direction. I dunno what the hell happened to me. Sunday ... is the day, so? Sigh. She said, friends better than couple, because there's no arguement between couple. But i really miss the time i spent with him, how? Macam mana? I memang tak tau. My mind just go empty suddenly. There's too much thing happened, I cant accept that in a time. Can someone kill me now? I want the time turns back, whatever it turn to, just turn! I want everything go smooth again. I don't wanna facing all those bad thingy, but it's impossible. I don't know how to go back now, it's impossible to turn back, to look back, to make the desicion. I hurt you lots, and i get hurt lots from love too. I'm scared with it. But i still worry with you. I dunno what can i say or do now, you hate me lots now. And i only can ... do something for you, without letting you know.